And One Day I woke Up and Embraced Myself With Love

Have you ever wondered why you belong to a certain family? Chose a certain career? Or live where you live? Have you ever asked yourself why you chose to experience life a certain way, as opposed to the way others do? Do you ever ask yourself, "What is my purpose?"

Most of us don't ask these questions until something in our life challenges us. We all have a story at some time in each and every lifetime. The story is about a "moment in time" that allowed us to Wake Up and Remember who we are. My moment in time happened when I was 39 years old.

It is ironic how life handed me death; and death gave me life in a matter of seconds.

Bring a wife, a mother of five, and running three businesses, kept me quite busy. However, I was not busy enough to know that I had to finish writing a book I had been working on for 10 years.

I don't know if it was because my youngest child was turning 4, or my oldest was moving out; or the fact that in less than a year, I would turn 40, that compelled me to finish writing my book. All I knew was that I had to do it so that I could continue the journey I was on. I was so focused on that journey that I stopped remembering that when one takes a journey, he or she needs to rest along the way. I forgot to rest and found myself in what I would describe as “a whirlwind of purpose.” I was so high on purpose that I forgot to feel myself. My family and friends started to notice the dark circles under my eyes and how I would have to kneel to the ground when I was in the heat, because I felt my heart pounding through my chest. They began to ask me if I would take time to go to the doctor to find out what was wrong. My answer was always the same, "I don't have time. I have too much to do. I need to finish my book so I can get out and share my message about how people can Wake Up.

It sounds silly doesn't it? Me having a message to share about remembering when I was being forgetful. Now isn't that ironic? Weeks had gone by and I found myself getting weaker by the day. Finally, one day, I backed out of my driveway and hit the truck that was parked a few feet away from me. I was startled! I got out of the van and looked at it. I had hit the truck so hard that the paint on my van was completely off the bent frame. I stood there just staring at it. I didn't know how I did it. I got down on my knees at that exact moment and told God to hold off for a few weeks, for me. I didn't have time to be sick. I thought, If I can just control the sickness or disease in me, I can continue on my path. I would visualize it inside a bottle and it couldn't affect me until I was done. I had it all figured out I would spend 14 hours a day working, play with the kids 3 hours, have dinner, and then 4 to 5 hours of sleep.

It all came to a complete stop one day when my mom and best friend told me that if I didn't go to the doctor, they would cancel two days of my appointments with clients. My "can't-let-other-people-down mode kicked in; and I argued with both of them. Finally, after blacking out at a baseball game, I decided to go to the doctor. I figured it was just my sugar or maybe a thyroid issue. The doctor came into the room, and I anxiously awaited my check up, so I could leave and work. He looked at me and asked me where I got the energy to get up in the morning with a blood hemoglobin count of 6 and iron count of 10. I laughed and said, "I gotta keep going. Suddenly a voice in my head said, "Stop and listen. So, I did. I was told to have an iron transfusion.

A few days later I was graced by the presence of some pretty amazing people. As I walked to into the Cancer center at my hospital to have my transfusion, I felt myself surrounded by such a tranquil peace. This peace felt different. It felt like it was still. I sat down and watched the people around me who had cancer. I saw something different in their eyes and found myself wondering if I could experience that peace within myself. Suddenly, I felt my body beginning to rise in temperature. It felt like a furnace was inside of me. I looked at my mom, and said, "I don't ...feel....right....." and began to travel down a funnel similar to those you see in a store in which a penny placed on top of it takes a long circuitous journey to the bottom. I found myself on a journey; and I dropped into a space that had no boundaries. I felt myself everywhere. I began to feel the presence of everyone within me and around me and me in them. This presence was full of so much love and connection. I found myself spontaneously dropping into what some call “nirvana,” heaven. I call it DIVINE TIME. Divine Time is the exact moment in time when we experience who we are. I was love...the creator/God was in me, and I in He. Then, suddenly I found myself coming back to the room as the nurses revived me. I took a breath and just smiled. In this moment I said, I am exactly who I need to be, where I need to be, and blessed to know myself.

That night, after my mother drove me home, I sat at my computer to write. I wanted to share my experience with others. I heard a voice say, sleep, so I put my computer away and went to bed. I rested for two days. On the second day, I went to bed and found myself in a lucid dream of what I call a Waking State. In front of me, was a fire a bush burning, and it was speaking to me. I stood there surprised, but also felt compelled to listen. The vibration was eternal, filled with peace and surrounded by love. Then, the bush spoke and said, "Teach people that we are one." I looked at it and said, "We are one." Out of my mouth came the words, “I already do that.” Again, I heard it say, "Teach People that we are One."

At that moment in time, I knew that I wanted to live my purpose. I made/remembered the agreement that was given to me and went out on a mission to teach people this process and was given messages to finish my book. I was given pages of information. In my heart, I knew I was home. I knew that home was within me. I understood that within me exists everything...the past, present and future...in one moment and that moment was now. It didn't matter how much money I had, what my job was or where I lived. I trusted exactly where I was in the moment. I was given The Process of Waking Up to share with others. It is a process in which we can all experience this state of UNITY within ourselves and amongst ourselves.

After two days of visions, I got on my computer at 3 a.m. and found a website that enabled me to start a project. I took my credit card out and filed the paperwork to start "The Bless You Project". My friends thought I was crazy spending money on something to "Bless" people, because I have five children to support, but faith brought me to this project.

Since that early morning revelation, I have had people volunteer to help me create a book called The Bless You Book. Patch Adams also contributed to this book. This book is full of little tear-out coupons that you can leave for people and Bless them. An example of one of the Bless You coupons is Bless You for taking the time to show me you care. These coupons can be left wherever you go to help people feel loved. I was told that if people are blessed, we can end depression, suicide, murder and other tragedies. A website is being created so people from all over the world can reach out and make a difference in each others lives, and a day set aside next year for people to gather across the world and Bless one another.

I have seen miracles occur including being blessed with a blood transfusion. (This gift of blood was given to me by my 18-year-old son and mother.) I know this message can help people the way it did me. I invite you to check out theblessyouproject.com and my new book Wake Up To Your Intuitive Path. Most importantly, know that no matter what is happening in your life, in the innermost core of who you are is PEACE. Open your heart to the magic that exists within you and live each day awake